Flaws And All

I MET MY HOTTIE!

2009-07-10T06:20:00.000-07:00

to start..the motivation for this post is my FOM team-mates..haha...for some reason our group discussion turned into a gossip session?haha....we talked about Blogs, relationships, siblings, parents and etc. it was fun..haha...and no one actually really did any project work during the 3hour break..we just ate together after gossiping and gossiped a little more..oops.

and the best thing happened today..i saw James!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha...ok..u might think i'm crazy but hey..he is a close friend..so i was on the way home after getting my laptop fixed and i missed the train because it was too crowded and i didnt really feel like being a typical Sinagporean..so i waited..the train was for some reason delayed and i was frustrated to have let the train before leave!but after i got onto the delayed train i realised why i missed the previous train..because James was in it!!!haha...we got to talking and disagreeing as usual..i was really extremely happy..the last time i saw him was 14th Nov..that was just too long ago..and after so long he walked me home..and i couldn help but recollect all the other times we did that..those are times that i will really cherish....i have to say i loved his hair..haha..and he looks good in his uniform and tan...haha...this is a friendship i can see lasting for years...

so i should be studying but im here..and i was planning on taking the day off..but then i realised that its not as if im working so extremely hard to take any sort of break...but hey as ive mentioned earlier..im the queen for procrastination...somebody slap me into my senses...

i miss Liana, Nessa, Zaza and Zubby..nessa has been telling me she misses me and i feel extremely bad for not catching up with her..and she lives 5mins from me...Liana and I are in the sme school and we haven met up...Jillyn too...she called me today randomly...and i was busy soi couldn really talk to her...its good to know that all my friends are always gonna be my friends...yay...

Battlefield.

2009-06-27T22:52:00.000-07:00

yes yes...after a long time ive decided to start blogging again..alot has happened..first i came back from Bangkok on tuesday..and i had to self quarantine myself..and that led to me missing the outting with my girls..the recess buddies aka vougeness..but its good to see the pics of the outting and i have to admit i miss them a hell lot..looking forward to another outting and hopefully this time i will be able to make it...

i was over at my grandmothers place over the weekend and my uncle found a dog when he was on the way home..its a female..looks like a cross between a Shih Tzu and a Poodle...its looks like it has been abandoned as it hair is over-grown and very tangled...i think my aunt is gonna keep it and she brought it to the groomers this morning...i guess she has also decided to name her fluffy..

and....the death of the king of pop..i honestly dont understand the world..when he was alive..all they did was to nickname him and frame him for the things i believe he never did...and now that he is gone..they put on acts and pay tribute...yes the man deserves the best tribute possible but why are people so fake?

and over the past few ive come to realise who i can really rely on when times are bad..and i m definately very comforted by that..and i guess thats it...

Don't try to explain your mind

I know what's happening here

One minute, it's love

And, suddenly, it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a

Why is it the smallest things that tear us down

My world's nothing when you're gone

I'm out here without a shield - can't go back, now

Both hands tied behind my back for nothing,

These times when we climb so fast to fall, again

Why we gotta fall for it, now...

I never meant to start a war

You know, I never wanna hurt you

Don't even know we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

Why does love always feel like

Can't swallow our pride

Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mmm

If we can't surrender

Then, we're both gonna lose what we have, oh, no

Both hands tied behind my back for nothing oh, no

These times when we climb so fast to fall, again

I don't wanna fall for it, now...

2009-05-15T06:13:00.000-07:00

(Top Row frm Left:Phay Shuen, Mei Ling and Aishah)

(Bottom Row frm Left: Chiew Yeh, Clara, Yening and me)

alright, so the week just ended...it was a pretty good week i suppose..had my first informal presentation..i was alright..not all of us were prepared but i think we should do fine for our CA..celebrated Clara and Yenlings birthday on monday (above picture)..it was good..Aishah and i went down to Holland V to get a mango cake..it was nice..Clara's friends from outside of SP came to..with another cake for her...the work-load hasnt piled up yet..but im already suffering with accounts...i mean..in sec school math was my worst subject..so why would i expect to get the hang of accounts that fast right? i finally understand econs with the help of my cousin..unfortunately im never letting her retire from my life (in terms of academics!haha)..stats is fine..its kinda easy...i likemy lecturer...he is funny...FOM lecture gets dry but the lecturer knows how to get our attention and he is funny too so its not much of a problem...furthermore, he is my tutor as well..so yay!haha..

i cant wait to go back to work tmr...i miss the kids...so so so so so so much..i dont get to see majority of my students anymore cause they attend the tuition on weekdays...weekends only some of the kids are there...and i get to see Vijaya and Surya...so its really a gonna be a good day..then later heading down to Funun to re-format my laptop and im dragging him along...so tmr will pretty much be a very good day for me...and i cant wait...i want subway cookies!

mothers day was okay too...went to Indian Times in East coast and then to Starbucks..its was a night filled with good food and lots of pictures...and i guess thats all i have for now...have a great weekend everyone!

2009-05-08T23:54:00.000-07:00

alright..i know i haven been updating..and since Nessa has asked here i am...well poly has started and alot of things have chnaged in my life...made plenty of new friends...got into a relationship..and just alot of things...

poly has been good..modules are not so bad...accounts and econs are a little hard for me...the rest are not so bad..i really hope my GPA will be good..i dont really know what CCA to join..a classmate was forcing me to join life-saving with her and another was forcing me to join dance with her...for those of u who know me well..u will know that dance is something i love and swimming is something i have been involved in for many years now...i didnt really bother looking into dance...i feel like a chicken when i dance hip-hop=D..so after some consideration im joining life-saving..im already taking it out-side..so i have to attend the session first to see what it is about in school..

haven seen my sec school buddies for ages..well Liana ur an exception..Liana is in the same school as me and ive met her in school a number of times..our origianl plan was to join the same CCA..but she found something she was interested in and she joined it already...i dont think i'd be too interetsed in that..i think its some form of martial arts if im not wrong..might be meeting Shiling on friday..not too sure if that will work out..

what else? hmm... went to Plaza Sing with him on Friday to get mom's gift..had fun...we dont get to spend too much together like we used to when i was working..bought my class mates their birthday gifts as well...Clara and Yenling..both their birthdays are on Monday..so yeap..

i guess thats it..i really dunno what to blog about...

have a great weekend..
and happy mummys day to all the wonderful women out there..

2009-03-10T23:46:00.000-07:00

so i went to SP yesterday to register..and i really am not lookin forward to start school..for some reason my heart is still stuck in NP..i really wanna be there...but it was my decision not to appeal..i dunno..i dont know anyone from the business school..and ill have to find my way around myself..im afraid to make new friends..damn i should have appealed!

but i m telling myself that ive always wanted to start over and this definately is a good chance..so..i hope it all works out fine and i hope that the people are nice as well..gosh..im freaking out..somebody help me...

update?

2009-02-24T07:49:00.000-08:00

hey there. work today was good. we were afraid that one of us was going to be fired but apparently we're doing a fine job and so we're safe. Dont want to stress about this. work was great. the kids are too cute. haha.

Liana's birthday celebration was good. despite the fact that we were a little lost for a bit. everything went well in the end. the botanic gardens really does have a very nice view. really very calming. good place for a very long chat as well. i really seriously have nothing much to say here and i really dunno why. life has been really beautiful and to end here is a beautiful picture =)

birthdays

2009-02-18T07:29:00.000-08:00

today was a blast..had fun..went to work at 11..did report B as we were instructed..we were rishing to fiinish it so that we could catch a movie..we did everything and were on our way to the train station...aunty Rosa from kumon called and told us something was placed wrongly and expected us to come back..but we were in a rush..haha...we headed to Causeway and caught the Curious Case Of Benjamin Button....the movie was really good..haha..we were laughing the whole day..and a wonderful dinner as well...thank u guys for the treat...

my birthday was alright..went for dinner at night to Little Bali..the place was just so romantic...really good food as well...good thing ive such an adventurous aunt=)

Liana gave a very good and sweet gift..she sang a small part of Footprints In The Sand by Leona Lewis...it was really very sweet and she also sang a birthday song..she even sent me a card!!!i love her..and Nessa too..called me up and strated singing a birthday song..i love u guys!!

ill upload the pic when i can..till then!

HAPPY VALENTINES!

2009-02-14T07:31:00.000-08:00

i know its abit too late to be wishing anyone a happy valentine..but hey...what the heck..today was just like any other day..went to east coast with the family..its was okay..nothing out of the box..but im really tired...

got a letter from liana but im yet to open it..im only gonna open the gifts and letter at 12am!haha...he is not calling today cause he is busy with his cousins..but its okay...i'll just open them thank everyone and sleep...having to go save lives tmr at 12..if u know me i dont really like to get a tan..its ironic considering the fact that i was in the netball team..training 3 hrs 2 times a week..under the hot sun!i couldn believe how much tanner i got..but its okay...haha..i thought it was funny=)

nothing else to say...but

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

updates.

2009-02-08T07:01:00.001-08:00

this week of work was hectic. the kids are back from the CNY break and with them a luggage full of homework and correction. some kids really do take advantage of me Vijaya and Surya. i guess it is because we are new and unlike the other teachers we smile at the kids. apparently we must not be too friendly with them. haha. Vijaya and I ended up getting really irritated with two students. and after much hesitation we told the kids to behave themselves. we felt bad but we did not really have a choice. the pay from Belezza has been delayed. Jillyn texted saying that its ready for collection. i couldn go today so i guess i can only go down next saturday after work. and its V day! haha. not like it really matters to me.

the 3 of us were talking the other day about how we have lost our freedom since we started working here. its been home to Kumon and the from Kumon back home. but we agreed that we enjoyed working here. they are really funny girls and they make me laugh ill i cry my eyes out. seriously. at least about 5 times each day. very friendly people.

its getting late. and im waiting for a call which i doubt will happen anytime soon. i'll end here. nth much to say. good night.

2009-02-03T08:13:00.000-08:00

im awake and on the phone...haha...came home from work at ard 10...late? yes i know...its gonna be like that everyday...but im fine with it having to bring home some cash and mix with the kids...haha...really cute..super super super cute beyond reasons..nth to say except ive to get back to the phone...

*stop screaming!im coming*

2009-01-29T01:44:00.001-08:00

just finished relinking my juniors. i have lost contact with all of them. and ive not even been back to help too. im sorry girls. no excuse. but yup. hope u gals are doing good. hope the new coach is great too. i'll try to come once. i need to be there at least once!

new jersey looking good too people!

love u ppl man!

2009-01-27T23:07:00.000-08:00

hey there...well today is the last rest day for me..tmr on i"ll be busy running after the kids for corrections and homework and will be busy with marking...its really fun and u dont realise how the time passes so incredibly fast..made to friends..seem friendly so yea..will be with them as long as we're there..

i wanna talk about insecurity. i dont get it. why are girls always associated with it? what does insecurity really mean? off hand i think it means that when a girl is in a relationship she feels like something is not right. that the relationship might end. she doesn't feel good when her partner speaks to another girl. these kind of things. but when does the trust come in? there might be many reasons why a girl doesn't trust a guy. but to say she is insecure because she doesnt trust him is not right. she might just be searching for his attention. or she really just had so much heart-break she doesn't wanna commit just yet. anyone care to elaborate.

read Liana's blog. I feel u. haha. and hey i really hope the audition things work out yea? one of my best friend an international superstar!! super cool dont u think? Nessa anything to say?

facebook is really a good way of connecting people. found so many people that i havent seen in ages. i need a big break. watch Bride Wars with the girls and just chat and make a fool out of ourselves just like old times.

2009-01-25T23:39:00.000-08:00

im back after about a month..blogging seems more of a chore these days but hey..i'll just use it as an excuse to me online longer...anyways..im working in Kumon...great to be with all the kids and stuff...however marking their papers can be a challenge with thier hand-writting..but its all good..

and i came across this brazilian model..Mariana Bridi...i think she is really gorgeous...however Mariana was diagnosed with a normal urinary tract infection..however the bacteria spread and proved to be fatal as it could not be cured with drugs..to save her, doctors had to amputate and limbs and hands..but she lost the battle last saturday..i was just so dumb-founded about this..told shal about it and she had the same reaction...

our postings are gonna be out in a few days and im really anxious to know where i'll be studying from April on...

and i just editted the whole blog and i dunno how often i'll be updating just yet..let see..till then...

im back

2008-12-28T21:58:00.000-08:00

Yes..its me..ive decided to start blogging again..ive got pretty much nothing to do and i guess i could pass my time here..everything has to be re-done..from the tag board to the blogskin to the links..wonder how long i will take to do that..

anyways..its been two months since the holidays started and ive not been doing much..i dint get myself a job..dont ask me why..and i went to batam and to KL with my family..Batam was fine..well the shopping part at least..the food killed me...the place was just too "in the streets" for me..i guess this is what u get for living the high life just by being a Singaporean..the stuff there was really cheap if i may add and their currency was interesting..it was in three decimals and we had a hard time differentiating the notes..KL was fun...been over a year since the whole family went on a trip together..it was good to hear all the familiar quotes and lines my family loves saying..loved my cousins impersination of everyone..i laughed till i couldn breathe..didnt really do much shopping..but i bought two tops from Chinatown..

'it was different and difficult to be there without you but i know you were there with us'

mom got a puppy..its small and clumsy..took long for mom to decide to get him but i guees she is happy with her decision..now the whole family has dogs..all four boys..good thing their of very different breeds..and they got along really well when we brought them out to East Coast yesterday..very hyper all of then but mine..haha..mine is just a 2month old puppy who refused to walk when on the leash..well my bro is walking him around the house to get him used to it so the next trip will be better..

Chappy..Cairn Terrier..my aunts puppy..u have no idea how much i fell in love with this one..i was crazy over him..practically more than i ever have been over a guy..haha...stayed with me for 1.5 months and i teared when he left for home...my baby boy!!

this is Rover..the one we got...for some reason mom fell in love with him..he is a Shih Tzu..Obedient for his age i may say...

on a more personal note...

im glad to be out of Unity but then the thought of moving on is scary too..but then the closer i get to him i know that i dont really have to worry..but then again..ive had this feeling before..but there is something different..this time im listening to my heart..something i always refused to do..and somehow i know that this is different..maybe because im trusting alot better..thats a good thing..despite texting him every single minute of the day i dont ever seem to get bored..i mean im an aquarian and we dont settle that fast..

but im in the world right now..for the first time in forever..where i feel safe and happy and wont trade it in for anything..ive got my family who knows me inside out..my friends who i know i can turn to..and a very settled mind..and i hope this feeling continues till the end...